A continuation from my previous post about the journey of my univeristy application.
I am so glad that this journey of university application has been a fulfilling one. I get to know God even more and my character has definitely been shaped.
On the 26th of May, I received news that I made it through the audition for USYD Sydney Conservatorium of Music audition. I really thank God for that because before the audition the manager told me that there are only 8 Singaporeans in the conservatorium. Really all glory to God for my successful audition. As soon as I heard the news, I seeked God about the direction and He spoke to me through Tim Hugdes’ God of Justice (We Must Go).
I thought to myself, “Is God asking me to go to USYD since the song titled “We Must Go”. But nah, it is kinda extracting out of context. So I waited upon God to reveal more things.
At Church camp during the 2nd week of June, Pastor heard from God and prayed for clarity of mind for me during ministry time. Yes, prayer was answered and things all fell into place during the Eagles’ Programme just this week. God spoke to me and 3 dilemmas in my life were settled.
One dilemma was about accepting USYD. The word is from Hebrews 11. It is about the past characters from the bible who acted by faith and in the end not getting what was promised by God. One example from that passage is about Abraham. By faith, Abraham obeyed God and was going to sacrifice Isaac. He was promised to be the father of nations yet he did not get what God promised. (It later happened through his son, Isaac, after he passed on.) In my interpretation, by faith, I applied for overseas universities and went through the procedures of auditions and write-ups. And at the end of this, I am not getting what God has promised. As what the scripture says in Hebrews 11:39-40:
“And all these, having obtained a good testimony through faith, did not receive the promise, God having provided something better for us, that they should not be made perfect apart from us.”‘
It may seem illogical to have even started on the process in the first place but if I were placed in that part of my life again and know I’ll end up at SMU, I’ll still apply overseas university if God ask me to. Simply because I believe God has plans for me to take on this journey and indeed, I have learnt so much, in the areas of knowing more about Him, knowing more about myself and knowing more about other people.
The second dilemma was about confirming SMU. During the Eagles’ Camp, I learnt about experiencing holy dissastisfaction and it is one roadsign of the place where I am called to. I discovered that the reaction I have towards a group of people I see is a kind of holy dissastisfaction. By taking Social Sciences in SMU, I am one step closer to that place of calling.
Lastly, the third dilemma was to join Eagles’ Programme for the next one year. I went back to the song, “God of Justice (We Must Go)” and read the lyrics in detail. It was actually speaking out reaching out to others.
God of justice, Saviour to all
Came to rescue the weak and the poor
Chose to serve and not be served
Jesus, You have called us
Freely we’ve received
Now freely we will give
We must go live to feed the hungry
Stand beside the broken, we must go
Stepping forward keep us from just singing
Move us into action, we must go
To act justly every day
Loving mercy in every way
Walking humbly before You, God
You have shown us, what You require
Freely we’ve received
Now freely we will give
Fill us up and send us out
Fill us up and send us out
Fill us up and send us out, Lord
That spoke to me in such a way that I must join Eagles’ Programme since it is about leadership, reaching out to others. To me, it is speaking to me that I must go to reach out to others. Definitely through this programme, I will be able to do so. On top of that, it means I have to study local university because it is a one year commitment.
Therefore, I am going to SMU.
Thank God for taking me through this journey.
Decisions are hard to make for some can be very major. I am so glad to have God to be able to give me clarity in my decisions. I know my future is certain and secured in His hands.
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